I didn't dream of you, I didn't wake up thinking about you. Then about 2 minutes later I realized I hadn't thought about you.... I was so tired I barely had time to think about going to work yet I still had you in my head.
People at work keep telling me to stop listening to the radio. All the songs just make me feel sick to my stomach. The one song about how a person said they wouldn't contact their ex, but they couldn't help it, they needed them. Dang that one hit me hard
I've spent all day prepping to see you tonight. Thinking so hard about everything. Micromanaging how I'm going to act....I'm terrified
I keep imagining us sitting side by side and you grabbing my hand or something. I know that won't happen, it's too soon. We both need time to heal, but I'm scared I'll scar... You were always the healing hand on my side.
I thought I was doing okay. Then I realized in less than one hour I see you. I had another anxiety attack. I'm trying not to think about you, but I can't remember the lady time my anxiety was THIS high
My emotions are so so so out of control. Like up and down. One second I think there's hope for us. The next I genuinely think you hate me.
You put your arm around me. The highlight of my week. Absolutely I thought I was going to die I stopped breathing
Damn it...your laugh....your voice...you. You're killing me here. Why are you killing me??? Why can't we figure something out? Do you want things to work? I don't even know anymore. I'm so lost Bae, I'm so lost and I just want you.
Stop it. Stop being amazing, stop being fantastic stop being everything I want. Stop putting me through so much pain. I just either want us together. Or for you to tell me you hate me. Stop leaving me in limbo
Your smell. Why does your smell affect me?
Driving home tonight. I lost it. I just lost it, crying and screaming, not a pretty sight. But you darling, oh you looked so amazing this evening. I wanted to compliment you so badly. But I knew it would be out of place
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