Day 3:

Still woke up thinking of you. I wonder if you'll ever leave my mind. It's been running circles. Constantly thinking of you. Everything relates back to you. 

I texted you. Wondering if maybe that was a mistake. We need more time. But I'm afraid you want an indefinite amount of time 

I have to see you later today. I don't know if my hearts ready for this... 

I understand why you ended things. But I'm not sure I'm ready to accept it yet 

I'm still holding out that our decision was for the best, but it still feels so wrong on so many levels 

In the end...will I ever change anything? Could things go back? No wait. We don't want things to go back. You broke up with me for a reason. Could we grow together? Could we be together once more, move on from how things once were. Actually become a couple again?

It hasn't even been 100 hours since you ended things...yet somehow it feels like I've lived an eternity without you 

Was expecting to see you at youth. I rehearsed how I was going to act all day. I tried to make myself look nice and what not. You weren't there... I was so relieved... Disappointed I didn't see you. But relived I didn't have to act fake. 

Ah. I miss you 

I felt my phone go off and my heart skipped a beat. I knew it was you and I was eager to know why you were texting me... Turns out just another thing for you to be mad at me for. Just another reason for how I've failed 

I felt good and confident about myself today. I loved myself. If only you knew... I'm taking your advice. I'm listening to you.

Please come back to me 

I learnt today that you're mad at we broke up on your birthday. Not my choice. Not what I wanted 

Will you ever forgive me?